Today was an okay day. Work was alright.
All I really have to say today is that I miss you a lot... And that you better not be looking for any prostitutes. haha. Not that they would stick around long enough anyway, because you would probably talk to much. I'm pretty sure that I'm the only girl that could put up with your excessive bull crap talk and your "know-it-all" attitude:) lol. I love that about you though, most of the time anyway. But I really do miss you a lot. I love you, Goodnight.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
I think I might die
I ran for like ever tonight, and I think my feet are going to fall off. I'm so sleepy and last night I didn't get any sleep at all. I fell asleep around 1 and just kept waking up all night. I fell asleep in Psychology today. I talked to Isaac too. I heard a commercial for laser hair removal today, and I thought about it. I want that done to my entire body, except my head of course. But in all seriousness, I really want it done. I would love to never have to shave my legs again. It's not like I ever do anyway, but on the days I do.. I wouldn't even have to worry about it. I haven't talked to you in over a week now. I miss you a lot.
I just realized I have a little mole or freckle or something next to my belly button. I'm just laying in bed with my teddy bear, listening to my iPod and not doing the 6 page paper that I have to have a rough draft for by Friday, but oh well. I think I need to get some sleep so that I am not falling asleep in my classes tomorrow. I don't pay attention anyway, but I would rather be awake.
I love you so much.
Delaware
So, I guess I will start with how my spring break went. Delaware was alright, I mean we had fun and all, and spent too much money. But it was nasty and rainy. The neighborhood flooded, and it was awful. It looked like a giant pond. I realized that being my little truck for 9 hours makes me feel claustrophobic. I ate too much food. I actually ate breakfast for like 3 days in a row. I never eat breakfast. My Grammie is all about breakfast. I went for a 3 mile bike ride with Emilee and we played volley ball. So we got some exercise. I had a little road rage fit because some stupid girl kept riding my butt and was an awful driver. There is a picture of me on Facebook while I was complaining about how bad her driving was. My arm is sore because me and Emilee hit each other every time we saw a Volkswagen Beetle and PT Cruisers. I'm pretty sure after a few hours my arm just went numb and I couldn't even feel it anymore. I bought some boat shoes. Not Sperrys because they were crazy expensive. I got two pairs at the Bass outlet. They were on sale for 50% off. The lady at the counter gave me 10% off too because I asked her about a coupon and they didn't have any, but she said she would put it in anyway. So I got both pairs for 65 bucks. I got a tan pair and a navy blue pair. They are pretty comfy. I got a bunch of cute shirts and some dresses, for like 2 bucks a piece at Rue 21, Charlotte Russe, and K-mart. I was excited.
I miss you though, more than anything in the world. I guess I have to go back to finding things to keep me busy again now that I am back at home. I am thinking about moving to Delaware for the summer and getting a job. I don't know yet though. It all depends.
I love you sweetheart.
I miss you though, more than anything in the world. I guess I have to go back to finding things to keep me busy again now that I am back at home. I am thinking about moving to Delaware for the summer and getting a job. I don't know yet though. It all depends.
I love you sweetheart.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
No title.
I couldn't think of a title for this blog. I am not sure how I am feeling right now. I was happy today, but now I feel miserable. Not "I hate my life" miserable, but like the kind of miserable where my body just feels like it doesn't want to move and I'm pretty sure I have a fever. My face is bright red and hot. I am still happy, but I feel sleepy and sick. Hopefully I don't feel like this in the morning, but at least it is Friday.
Goodnight.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Decisions
I think I have made a few big decisions tonight. I'll start with how I made these decisions first.
It snowed, again. So after I got home from school and sat around all evening, mom decided she wanted to go see Norma. So we got in the van and went to their house around 7:30ish. We all talked and everyone was at the table, and then everyone disappeared except for Jenny, mom, Norma, and me. Jenny is going to prom with me:) I am so excited about that. Emilee isn't going anymore I guess... she said she doesn't want to because she didn't find a dress. We are going dress shopping for her sometime soon. I have to buy tickets soon, since it is in like 3 weeks or something. I need shoes too. Then we talked about how Jenny went to visit App and she is applying and stuff. And she wants me to go and I refused at first, but she talked me into going on a tour with her for a weekend and she showed me all these booklets about it and stuff and I am actually considering it(big decision #1.) Then I saw that they had a Communications Disorder program and that was what I was thinking about doing, but Elizabeth City doesn't offer it. Then I can get my graduate in speech pathology. I think that might be a sign that I should apply there for the spring(big decision #2.) I have to load up on classes in the fall to finish my associate. But I think it will be worth it. It won't be near you though, which is what I wanted. But at least I will only have two years there. And it is still close to my family, even though I wanted to get away from them lol. I think I can handle them though. I just feel kind of good about it. I think this is the most solid decision making I have done in a while. So far, so good. We didn't leave Jenny's until a little after midnight. So I am beat, but I wanted to tell you all of this stuff.
By the way, Jenny is such a cute pregnant person. You should see her. She is just adorable. I missed her. I'm glad she is going to prom with me so we can catch up again.
I miss you, more than anything in the world. I hope you never have to leave like this again, even though I know that is just my wishful thinking. I don't know if it is because I am so anti-social or what, but I just feel lonely. I feel happy when I write these blogs because I think about you and I'm sure you think I am stupid when I write some of it, and that makes me laugh because I can just imagine the comments you would have making fun of me if I were telling you in person. And I am pretty sure that was a run on sentence. But it's a blog so I don't care. None of this is right, I write so awful when I blog. Anyway, when I am not writing these blogs or doing something that makes me constantly think of you, I put myself in a bad mood. I have become a big gossiper since you left too. Usually I just tell you everything and I get it out and then I don't tell anyone else. Well now I don't have you to tell anything to whenever I have to tell someone and I end up talking about it to other people, who tell other people that I was talking about them, and then they get mad and say something to someone else, and it is just a big mess. I try to keep my mouth shut and not talk about anyone anymore. I am going to have such bad karma now. All of these bad things are going to start happening to me soon, I know it. After all the gossiping I have done, I probably deserve for something to go wrong in my life. I really think I have become an awful person. Just very irritable, cranky, and whatnot. I would hate me if I were other people. I would love to just go somewhere and get away from everyone for a little. Spring Break is next week, like the 10th through the 14th and I would love to go to Delaware. I know I probably won't, but I would like to. I think I just need a break from everyone at school, and in my house. Maybe I am just pitying myself. I don't know. I guess I am going to go to sleep, I don't think we are going to have a delay tomorrow. So goodnight.
I love you.
It snowed, again. So after I got home from school and sat around all evening, mom decided she wanted to go see Norma. So we got in the van and went to their house around 7:30ish. We all talked and everyone was at the table, and then everyone disappeared except for Jenny, mom, Norma, and me. Jenny is going to prom with me:) I am so excited about that. Emilee isn't going anymore I guess... she said she doesn't want to because she didn't find a dress. We are going dress shopping for her sometime soon. I have to buy tickets soon, since it is in like 3 weeks or something. I need shoes too. Then we talked about how Jenny went to visit App and she is applying and stuff. And she wants me to go and I refused at first, but she talked me into going on a tour with her for a weekend and she showed me all these booklets about it and stuff and I am actually considering it(big decision #1.) Then I saw that they had a Communications Disorder program and that was what I was thinking about doing, but Elizabeth City doesn't offer it. Then I can get my graduate in speech pathology. I think that might be a sign that I should apply there for the spring(big decision #2.) I have to load up on classes in the fall to finish my associate. But I think it will be worth it. It won't be near you though, which is what I wanted. But at least I will only have two years there. And it is still close to my family, even though I wanted to get away from them lol. I think I can handle them though. I just feel kind of good about it. I think this is the most solid decision making I have done in a while. So far, so good. We didn't leave Jenny's until a little after midnight. So I am beat, but I wanted to tell you all of this stuff.
By the way, Jenny is such a cute pregnant person. You should see her. She is just adorable. I missed her. I'm glad she is going to prom with me so we can catch up again.
I miss you, more than anything in the world. I hope you never have to leave like this again, even though I know that is just my wishful thinking. I don't know if it is because I am so anti-social or what, but I just feel lonely. I feel happy when I write these blogs because I think about you and I'm sure you think I am stupid when I write some of it, and that makes me laugh because I can just imagine the comments you would have making fun of me if I were telling you in person. And I am pretty sure that was a run on sentence. But it's a blog so I don't care. None of this is right, I write so awful when I blog. Anyway, when I am not writing these blogs or doing something that makes me constantly think of you, I put myself in a bad mood. I have become a big gossiper since you left too. Usually I just tell you everything and I get it out and then I don't tell anyone else. Well now I don't have you to tell anything to whenever I have to tell someone and I end up talking about it to other people, who tell other people that I was talking about them, and then they get mad and say something to someone else, and it is just a big mess. I try to keep my mouth shut and not talk about anyone anymore. I am going to have such bad karma now. All of these bad things are going to start happening to me soon, I know it. After all the gossiping I have done, I probably deserve for something to go wrong in my life. I really think I have become an awful person. Just very irritable, cranky, and whatnot. I would hate me if I were other people. I would love to just go somewhere and get away from everyone for a little. Spring Break is next week, like the 10th through the 14th and I would love to go to Delaware. I know I probably won't, but I would like to. I think I just need a break from everyone at school, and in my house. Maybe I am just pitying myself. I don't know. I guess I am going to go to sleep, I don't think we are going to have a delay tomorrow. So goodnight.
I love you.
Monday, March 1, 2010
job
I think things are starting to get better. I possibly have a new job:) Once I fill out the application. And I will be working with Jenny. So maybe we will be reunited lol. I hope so. She left me a comment on myspace today and said she missed me. She text me and told me she is getting me an application and can probably hook me up. Since she is now a night manager. I will get a lot more hours than I do now. So I guess I can't complain today. Well, actually.. I had to get two brackets on my braces taken off and moved today. That hurt pretty bad. One of the wires got stuck on my lip and I have a nasty sore now. That hurt even worse.
I have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. Mostly college, because it is stressing me out. I have no clue what I want to do anymore. I don't know where I want to go or anything. I hate being such an indecisive person. I keep finding so many negative things when I start thinking about what I want to go to school for. I still have about a year to make a set decision, but still, its hard. I've been thinking about you, and how I was reminded that I told you I wouldn't marry you if you didn't learn how to manage your money. Which is kind of true, but honestly, I probably would whether you do or not. I would deal with your money problems and fix them for you when we got married. Lol. I've been stressing about my job, just because I am so annoyed that I don't have any hours. Which means no money. I haven't even started saving up for insurance yet, and I still haven't gotten full coverage on my truck, because my POS dad hasn't sent any money. Hopefully Jenny can get me a job with her, because I hate having to ask for money, which is why I am probably broke. Lol. My mom gave me some gas money the other week because I did something for her. I gave Jody like a third of my pay check for my phone and then most of what was left went for gas. I get paid in like 6 days so I don't have anything to worry about, I just like to stress and worry about things I guess. I wouldn't be me if I didn't. I just don't like depending on other people to help me. I feel like I should be able to pay for my own stuff.
I was also pretty pissed off today, I was on my way back from the orthodontist and I haven't had a Rita's since the last time we went together. I have been craving one so bad. But I just haven't had the gas to drive there to get one or they were closed when I was already in Hickory. I had a few bucks from tip money the other night that I saved just to stop and get a Rita's on my way home today. I parked, got out of my truck, and then realized I left that money at home in the pocket of my work pants.
Don't tell Aunt Lena I said anything about my money. I don't need anything and she will tell me I should have told her if I was broke and needed something.
Well, I think it is my bed time. So I love you bunches and I miss you a lot.
mwuah.
I have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. Mostly college, because it is stressing me out. I have no clue what I want to do anymore. I don't know where I want to go or anything. I hate being such an indecisive person. I keep finding so many negative things when I start thinking about what I want to go to school for. I still have about a year to make a set decision, but still, its hard. I've been thinking about you, and how I was reminded that I told you I wouldn't marry you if you didn't learn how to manage your money. Which is kind of true, but honestly, I probably would whether you do or not. I would deal with your money problems and fix them for you when we got married. Lol. I've been stressing about my job, just because I am so annoyed that I don't have any hours. Which means no money. I haven't even started saving up for insurance yet, and I still haven't gotten full coverage on my truck, because my POS dad hasn't sent any money. Hopefully Jenny can get me a job with her, because I hate having to ask for money, which is why I am probably broke. Lol. My mom gave me some gas money the other week because I did something for her. I gave Jody like a third of my pay check for my phone and then most of what was left went for gas. I get paid in like 6 days so I don't have anything to worry about, I just like to stress and worry about things I guess. I wouldn't be me if I didn't. I just don't like depending on other people to help me. I feel like I should be able to pay for my own stuff.
I was also pretty pissed off today, I was on my way back from the orthodontist and I haven't had a Rita's since the last time we went together. I have been craving one so bad. But I just haven't had the gas to drive there to get one or they were closed when I was already in Hickory. I had a few bucks from tip money the other night that I saved just to stop and get a Rita's on my way home today. I parked, got out of my truck, and then realized I left that money at home in the pocket of my work pants.
Don't tell Aunt Lena I said anything about my money. I don't need anything and she will tell me I should have told her if I was broke and needed something.
Well, I think it is my bed time. So I love you bunches and I miss you a lot.
mwuah.
This is me
I get these emails of these cute little daily quotes with a little cartoon. They are really adorable and cute. This morning it said "Anything is possible on this adventure called life, so she put on her backpack and headed for the hills. Soon, however, she got tired. She went home and had a gorgeous hot bath and then watched an amazing nature program on tv."
I'm pretty sure that would be me;)
I'm pretty sure that would be me;)
Cute
I don't have anyone to tie my shoes for me anymore:(
I just realized this and I am very upset about it. Haha. But really. Work was alright tonight. Wayne is beginning to make me think he is gay. I know he is kidding, but gah, I was telling him about the guy in our volley ball class that Emilee thinks is cute, and he was like "I think he is a cute guy." I laughed for at least 5 minutes and I was like "are you serious?" and he told me he thought that guy was a stud and he wanted to look like that. Then he asked me if I thought he was cute and I just laughed and he told me I was a jerk and walked away.
I'm kind of cold tonight. My heater is on, but isn't doing much good. I am so tired. I guess I should go to bed so that I might actually have a chance of being on time for school tomorrow.
I love you babe.
I just realized this and I am very upset about it. Haha. But really. Work was alright tonight. Wayne is beginning to make me think he is gay. I know he is kidding, but gah, I was telling him about the guy in our volley ball class that Emilee thinks is cute, and he was like "I think he is a cute guy." I laughed for at least 5 minutes and I was like "are you serious?" and he told me he thought that guy was a stud and he wanted to look like that. Then he asked me if I thought he was cute and I just laughed and he told me I was a jerk and walked away.
I'm kind of cold tonight. My heater is on, but isn't doing much good. I am so tired. I guess I should go to bed so that I might actually have a chance of being on time for school tomorrow.
I love you babe.
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