bad day

I can honestly say that this is the worst day I have had in a while. I have been so moody and I just feel awful today. I hate everything, especially me. I haven't cried in a while either, today I broke that streak. I went to Hickory with mom and we did some shopping. She bought me a dress and some shoes, a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. We ate lunch. We walked around every store in the hickory. The last place we went to was Target. I tried on a really cute bikini. That was the last straw piling on top of my already emotional self. I looked so awful. I wanted it because it was cute, but I just looked so fat and ugly and awful. So my mom said to wait and get it when she had money and I told her I didn't want it at all because I looked awful. Then we got in the car and I just started crying and I cried all the way home. I haven't really been doing well on my eating healthy thing. I mean I haven't been going crazy, but this weekend I ate some bad stuff. And I think I am getting my period soon, so that is probably another reason why I hate everything right now. I found a truck, its a 2004 Nissan Frontier. It is a champagne color, extended cab, 36,000 miles, BUT its a stick. So I guess I am going to learn how to drive a stick now. Because it is cheap and I want it.