I am surprised

The past few days have been pretty great. I said something mean about Kendra today, and I shouldn't have said it, but I know it will probably get back to her. I hope it doesn't because I don't want to hear it. Anyway, I'm not worried about it because I'm not talking about her anymore. So I don't really care. I have better things to talk about. I worked out with Emilee today and my shoulders are killing me now. We got in the hot tub, and 3 of the guys that were there yesterday came and chilled with us a little. One of them is really nerdy looking, kind of like napoleon dynamite. The tattoo guy left early and Emilee was sad. The other guys keep checking her out too. They don't even look at me lol. Probably because I talk about you all the time:) They are pretty cool though, they all wanted to hang out and watch the Duke and Carolina game tonight, but I wouldn't go hang out with a bunch of guys. So the two of us watched it at Emilee's house. After church tonight I picked up some pizzas and then picked her up from church. We went to her house, we had the house to ourselves so we ate pizza, talked, and watched the game. It was a really good game. Duke won, so I was happy and Emilee was pissed off. I feel a lot more confident and better about myself now that I am working out. I don't know why, because I am pretty sure my body still looks exactly the same. Especially after everything I ate this weekend. I might be losing something, because my ring is getting a little loose on me now.  I'll probably have to get it sized again eventually if it gets too loose. I have to go to the gym by myself tomorrow because I have to work from 2 to 5, the usual gym time. Then I have class as 6. So I won't be home at all tomorrow. I have to go to school, go to the gym, then to work, then to class, then I should be home around 9:30, or earlier if my teacher decides to let us out early but that never happens. I just want you to know that I miss you so much and I hate you not being here. It's not really a big deal, like I don't want you to feel bad about it or anything, but I hate not having someone to talk to nonstop. You're always the person that I can just talk and talk and talk to forever. Emilee told me I talk too much, so I am trying not to talk as much, because I realized that I really don't shut up, ever. I don't know how you stand listening to me for so long. If I were someone else I would tell myself to shut up for five minutes. I am pretty excited about going to the beach this summer. So far it is me, Emilee, Jorden, and Amber. I don't know who else is going to go yet. We don't really want Macie to go, because she will want to go out and flirt with guys and stuff the whole time, and I obviously won't be doing that. And Emilee doesn't want to put up with her the whole time. Lol. I always write these really late at night when I start falling asleep. I guess that means it's bedtime. I love you more than anything.♥